A single mom for 7 years and now living in a blended family, Meg blogs about her life experiences before and after re-marriage.
“In the most turbulent times, God’s power is revealed. Join me as we walk, and sometimes run through the ups and downs of this life journey!' - Meg Lovett
“Just let go Meg, I’ve got this!”
Those words ring over and over in my head daily as I read scripture and
pray with God. If I clearly obtain this
phrase in my head each time I dive into God’s Word, why then is it so hard for
me to simply do that…let go?
If you are like me, you have been hurt and possibly even hurt beyond
measure. Things or people you once trusted
proved to be untrustworthy. Situations
and your life goals completely did a “one-eighty” on you when it was determined
you were going to be a single parent. I
do not know what has gotten you to the place you are now, but I do understand the
pain and the frustration that goes along with it. I want to write specifically to the issues of
trust and control.
It is a very easy transition that happens within the moments of
finding out your life is going to be changed forever. Maybe you were encountering a divorce, maybe
you became pregnant outside of wedlock, or maybe you encountered the death of a
spouse. Whatever brought you to the
situation you now find yourself in, quite possibly you found yourself facing
trust and control issues.
For me, losing a husband because of abuse, neglect, and outside
relationships had caused me to shut down in the trust department. At the same time, I lost a lot of friends due
to judgment and early on I felt I couldn’t even trust my family to stand behind
my decision. I easily became a skeptic
of anyone trying to become a part of my life or my son’s life. I had to be shown that I could trust someone
before I did. I also began controlling every
aspect of my life. I put up a wall to my
emotions and fears and just did what I had to do to survive. Can you relate to this?
It is a constant struggle to let my guard down and trust God to do
wonderful things in our lives. I often
find myself in situations wondering where God’s answer is and then BAM! I realize that I am holding the reigns and I
haven’t fully let go of my grip. Thankfully,
God understands and God graciously forgives.
Won’t you join me in daily letting go of the reigns of this life so that
God can do miraculous things?!
TrustintheLORD with all your heart and lean not
on your own understanding;
in all your ways submit to him, and he will make your paths straight. –
The dreams I had of being a full time stay at home mom to my
son had changed to: motherhood AND career.First it was intentional, and then it was very unintentional.While I personally feel that women
should have “something” outside of the home to hold onto and have ownership of,
my heart is very heavy and full of guilt each time I walk my son into his
thrives with the other children; however it is a necessity and not a luxury for
him to encounter such a place.
In order to be the financial provider of your home, you must
work full time and you must then work enough hours to pay for someone else to
watch your child while you work to pay them.Read that again…you have to work to pay someone else to
raise your child, while you work! The guilt that goes along with this is
excruciating! Even for someone who wants to work, you still feel guilt when you
pick up your child and you hear that they had a first happen that day.Or what about the time when you picked up your son or daughter and heard
that they got hurt and someone else made them feel better? It is a rollercoaster
One side of the coin for me: I love working outside of the home each day because I have amazing co-workers who are also
like family.I am supported and I
am loved.I get to work towards
the Kingdom of God. I get to encounter Jesus daily in everything I do! I get to
leave my "day job" early enough to pick him up from school! I am
supporting my child.
Other side of the coin for me: I have to
hurry my son through breakfast and morning rituals to get him out the door on
time.I have to do the “walk of
shame” as I like to call it as I stroll him into daycare where I give a quick
kiss and hug goodbye and say, “be good today, I love you”.I get to wonder all day if his needs
are being met and if he is missing me and wishing we were together. I work in
anticipation for time when I get to pack up and head over to get him, just to
find he’s had emotional struggles that day, or wasn’t given enough sunscreen
and now is sunburnt, or “worse” yet…his day was FANTASTIC and I missed it.
The reasons on either side of the coin are endless for me but the
majority seems to lie in the negative. Maybe you don't love your job and so even being in such a place of employment is heart wrenching for you as well. Maybe you can add "travel" into the mix of reasons you have to be away. All of these reasons create this
emotional up and down syndrome that can really wear on your guilt and your
mental well-being. Let’s take a
look at what the bible says about this.
ForIknowtheplansI have for you,”
declares the LORD, “ plans to prosper you and not to
harm you, plans to give you hope
and a future. Jeremiah 29:10-12 NIV
Dear Heavenly Father,
Thank you for loving us so much that you would give the ultimate sacrifice so
that we may raise our children to know you and recognize your love for them.Help us to lean on your promise of hope
and of a future for us and our children.I pray that each person reading this will be shown little glimpses of your
heavenly plan.That we would
encounter you daily and that we would be able to see you in all we do.Lord, please give us strength to get
through the days that are pressed with guilt and burdens.We trust you in all we do and trust in
your promise.Protect our children
as we are away.
In Your Name, Amen.